Today had the 2nd general meeting it was rather screwed. as usual tham and juehua didn attend this thing. well it went out rather okay? with mr poh guiding me the way through. he's a relli nice guy , i mean he's like so holy and stuff , contributed alot of constructive suggestions. then yeah , as usual everyone had the lets get it over and done with attitude.. especially seen in weijian and edmund's faces. then mr mok turn up , yeah so everyth continued. then sir poh had to leave to attend someth and mr mok was left with us.. well, he got back to his normal mokking-self. " i chair meeting very fast one"-mmok. whats the point of chairing some meeting with speed but no substance? well its okay, just an obstacle for me to face, anyway there might be alot more ppl out there like mok in the society. so in the end , it wasn that productive. scrwed up this responsibility of mine as a chairperson.
well talking abt bb, why i stayed here is mainly because of the brotherhood that i forged with them. i enjoyed working together with them as a whole but many began to disappoint me.
especially edmund, goes around saying " fuck this bb thing, so boring". whos isnt bored of it after so many years and , if they carry on like these their attitude may eventually affect everyone. and also weijian. mm maybe we're the ones who scrwed him up.. yeah la i guess he isnt relli suited to be in BB , i mean its a UG and he's not a relli ug person.. and he has this pride that he holds very high up and tt kind of attitude may jeopardize bb14th. Despite his 'inabilities' i admire the fact that he made SOME changes . well not very much a difference but at least he tried. from someone who sucked at almost everyth except his amazing results and adminstration stuff. well its he put in alot of effort i guess we all see that. sorry dude, its our fault for ostracizing u but its urs for ur ' ure top of the world attitude' and you definitely fucking pissed me off the previous time during the meeting with mok where u mentioned oh the drill thing.?? its a once a year thing when u told us its some fucking once per month fuckshit.
Dissappointment, from 18 ppl to some 14 ppl and 2 are just.. i dunno.
cant blame thou i mean its the nature of ppl. yeah although we are v small in terms of size but only if we were more together, as in relli together not the current superficialness that i face.
but yeah if i were to lnik back i wouldn wanna blame my seniors but it had to be them, for not relli taking us properly and not sieving out those who are meant for ug and those who are not.. and now i love the attitude of every single one form january - april. i mean everyone was doing so much vying for a post. and when the posts were confirmed wtf happened to everyone, even those that i had trust most in.. everyone started to do things for personal gains and interest. hey this is some uniformed association not some fucked up warfare that involves fightin with each other just for food. also officers fuck to you all except for poh and oi. well khoo i dont relli know him. u guys relli lowered the morale of the company, what kinda attitude are u guys exactly showing. bb may not be someth important to you, well at least show basic respect for this organisation if u dun like it u can always have a change in it, choose not to take us. i relli would appreciate if thers a teaching staff in ahs who's relli interestd in promoting the boys brigade. okay its okay if u have some social problems i mean yeah its the nature and how u are being brought up.. but what abt attire? you know what it means to come in the wrong attire, it means that u completely disregard this association.. ahh wtf.
i relli hope that im in a cca where there's ppl who perceive things my way , i mean i dont think what im doing all the time is correct but i hope at least theres someone to relli explain to me why its wrong and stuff. okay bengan may be able to tell me things at times but most of the time he's just finding ways to put me off instead of correcting me.. well the rest engulfs me with disappointment.. the only ones i can rely on now. keane, ben gan, chongrui ,jinghan, nelson. i think my batch seriously lack someth.. someth called appreciation. Appreciating ppl relli means alot.
Orientation most probrably my very last project before my handover, i relli wanna do it well. no matter what nxt year's intake must increase.. i want bb14th to be a cut above the rest of the ugs in ahs.. i mean yeah moderations have to be done to improve for sure. all the best bb14th!!!