chiangrai in 1-2 days time. closer to 1 i suppose coz its 11.40pm sunday. ytd was AQ training finally a proper one. it got me aching over the body and also some muscle crams at my heart area was it relli muscle crams or someth broken and is now lkef there aggravating that pulmonary area. anyway 2 days passed since tt happy day but now feeling kinda not myself. not only today but ever since after class chalet. i seem to be totally drifted away from reality. i felt so much drifted away from my bb mates maybe its coz i dun see them as frequent, i rarely see the pa ppl also. i feel kinda unstable. ever since dunno when i stopped having the abilitiy to speak to ppl and think proper. i cant seem to cheer on ppl esp when they need i mean that used to be my forte i wanna put ronald's teaching to good use. speaking of ronald haven heard of him in a very long time kinda miss that fella, he enlightens me whenever i speak to him though in every conversation i may feel intrigued by his intelligence but at least i do learn. yeah. shanna i know nvr in ur life will u read this but i pray that u have a blissful path that lies ahead of you, im sure u can make it in life, nvr allow trivial matters to become detriments in life. i hope you'll relli live ur days happy like how u always do together with ur goodfriends shen & ziyun especially seen. hope u laugh ur lungs out everyday as well , i just hope that you'll always be happy. well i know im nvr gonna tell that to her or anyone but at least im letting some things off my chest. just like today, i deployed my work , my orientation work at last finally they're concious of what to do and they're doing someth, that heavy rock was lifted alas. bb guys hope u guys will find happiness in whatever may come, its our last 5-6 mths working together all the best to all of us. know its a difficult period for us most of us differ in opinions and ther are many backstabbing cases well should i say is a social cycle aahh. it happens almost everywhere even in groups that appear super bonded for eg. marco polo. have they not backstabbed ppl such as chelsia . speaking of mp reminds me of jiajie well . i couldn comprehend why u said all those to weihua i mean thers no point alr. you may think u appear cool when u use big words and talk like some mr perfect but its not, coz its not truthful at all and youre sorta just pushin all the blame on one person. im not in anyway saying im right but just u are the president hope that they didn choose u becoz u assured them a good feeling but they choose u becoz ure one capable guy. you are in someways but u might hafto work on the others. well speaking abt ppl , friends naturally comes across my mid i mean woah i nvr regret meeting ppl in ahs such as aziel and weihua they might be assholes like me thats why i call them friends well maybe thats one reason but honestly the 2 of them are quite mature , i mean the few of us me wh aziel chris etc guides one another onto the correct path also. relli nice ppl met . JJ's also in my click i do regard him he's v nice but i dont kw abt him i do hope he knows our intention is not to mock him or what sorry jiajie~ truthfully hope u like the socks/stockings i gave you . i guess over this year i changed pretty much i relli dun feel very mingjun man i feel very i dont know ahah , maybe puberty is finally taking its course. oh and thres this guy called chunkit rather long since i talked to him another friend that plays an impt role in moulding my sec3 life, thks.
bb guys i already lowered my expectations of them , feeling much better now, maybe my seniors forseen this sorta social emotional prob thts why i wasn given ops. i very much wanto be one actually, since the day i got my oustanding recruit award. i dont see a reason why i didn get anyway but well maybe i do see it now ahha. my batch doesn recognize me at all i bet they take me as some small fry who couldn do much for this coy as compared to more prominent subjects such as benjamin and keane,well they are able to prove their worth and i wasn maybe thats someth that i relli lack. recognition. after i didn achieve my long awaited post i kinda slackened off, i didn think for the coy as much as i did in the past and my batch kinda finds me shitty oh well.... ppl. i guess one of the most impt skills in life is social skill, it is a skill so wide it covers the entire earth. wow i just came up with that haha. yay she's online and she's feeling much better
alr phew... another load off my chest. hope my heart recovers by tml i dun wanna worry my friends and family when i go over.
everynow and then i still think abt my ambition - pilot. i relli want to be one i relli wanna impresss my kids and my families i wanna do them and myself proud. being able to fly is relli my dream i love the feeling when im in the air its so cool. but i wonder if im relli moving towards my goal.. but first i wanna do well in my studies relli hope i can get into Hwa Chong Instituition or Raffles JC its diff but i wanna do it i wanna try out a new environment i wanna be a pilot.
wow inspiring indeed inspiration .. it kinda links with AQ inspire&aq ahah coz aq is relli kinda life inspiring. i relli enjoyed myself in aq like i work so much for it , i love the team man , team 204 ahah. sounds gay but relli , not much bond but still aftereveryth we went thru together it paid off. " next year must win 1st for aq hor" -shanna, wow these words relli lighted up the olympic flame in me mann woohooo FIRST FOR BOYS TEAM CATEGORY SILVER CUP O M G!!!!!!!